Week 2 of goals

Some of my small goals from last week were met, others I am still working on. For this week I want to continue with last weeks goals, and add in more goals. New goals in addition to old goals: 1.) continue to brainstorm (pray) on who/where Dallas' 1st bday presents should go to. It is several months away but I need to prepare myself. 2.) praise God before feet hit the floor

Mid week prayer focus

This weeks prayer focus has so far been on the following:
1.) soften my family member's hearts so that in Sunday when we go to alpha they are all willing to receive God's word.
2.) praying for my dad and Tylers sobriety
3.) guidance for my daily life.
4.) grandma dennis' health

Setting large...and small goals starts NOW

I want to try something new.  My brother said to me tonight that for 2012 he wants me to love unconditionally.  What does he mean by that?  Is it viewed by others that I love unconditionally?  In my heart I do not offer conditions so am I portraying to people that I only love them "if" they do this or "if" they do that?  That makes me sad.  While I do not know if I am able to love unconditionally and show the world that I do...I do know that there are things in my life I want to change.  In 2011 I made some drastic changes to my lifestyle, and in 2012 I would like to continue the trend.

Things in 2012 that I would like to accomplish:

1.) Anger less easily.  Bite my tongue.  Yell less.

2.) Lower my expectations of my brilliant son so that I dont push him away.

3.) Judge others less.

4.) Find financial freedom.

5.) Pray more.

6.) Save money. (Adoption fund & Vacation fund)

7.) Find out who Wendy really is and what her purpose here is...

8.) Lose weight and feel good about myself again.

However...in order to accomplish all of these things I am going to have to set smaller goals.  I want to write a weekly blog about what I want to accomplish that week.  End the week with another blog going over what I was able to accomplish.  Maybe even blog about what I prayed for and about.  Just so we can physically see how wonderful God's grace truly is.

Today I had a fight with God.  It got ugly.  Real ugly. I screamed, I cried, I cursed.  And in the end, I was broken-hearted for my behavior, and I am for certain He was too.  I am His child, and at times children act out and say things that they do not mean.  I can only imagine the heartache I would feel if my son said to me what I said to God today.  Thank goodness God is forgiving and is merciful! 

For the week of January 9th 2012 here are three simple goals:

1.)  Set bill pays back up

2.)  Have a game night with my son.

3.) Pray twice daily.

Until next week...
Wish me luck...

Hello 2012

Wow! What a year this has been!!! I keep reflecting back to where I was exactly one year ago. It chokes me up. Big time! I can't believe how much I have grown both spiritually and in my waste band lol! I am nervous for change but it has to happen. We will move forward with God's will leading the way. Soon, very soon...this will all make sense. I have an overwhelming pull in my heart to pursue china orphanages. Only time will tell...

God is at work in our family...I can feel it!

For one full year I have been tuning into Christian music. Honestly, I can't imagine what life was like before I had this as my foundation. It makes me sad to think about the old me. Hopefully in another year I will be able to look back at all of my fabulous accomplishments and achievements and be proud of myself for doing good for myself and for others especially. Praise God for all the great changes I made in my life. Hopefully he is laying the ground work for change within my family. In two weeks my entire family will be taking Alpha together. I can't wait! It will be a great bonding experience <3 and hopefully they will be going with an open and softened heart and will hear The Good News and accept it!!!