The monkey stands alone

I have my ups...way more ups then before...and I have my downs. Most of today was good, but then it hit me. We had a stuffed monkey in place if our son in our family picture. :(. I know God needed him more...I just wish sometimes God would take negotiations... LOL Dallas was my baby... And my heart had been shattered ever since he was called home. Tyler has truly been amazing. So has tanner. They are both so patient with me while I go through my erratic mood swings, temperamental tantrums, and emotional roller coasters. If I were them, I would leave me! They stand by me...and love me...and nurture my heart. Thank you God for them!!!!!!